I was reflecting on my life recently and looked at my tendency to be on my own. I feel completely at ease in my own space, able to think, choose, and act how I want to in any moment. I am very creative and can practice my crafts , my writings, my personal processing at any time of the day. I have inner and outer access to me as I am able to provide witness for the sensations and moods and thoughts that serve…or don’t. Thus, I am almost in a constant state of awakening, seeing myself more deeply, opening up to evolving skills, application of inspiration, creating by riding that magnificent Celestial wave of spirit revealing herself.

As glorious as this is, I sometimes am keenly aware of the atmosphere of separation that seems to infiltrate at random times. Of course, as I am often on my own in these moments, I am able to stop and pay attention and likely find the trigger for the loneliness…and feed, usually my Inner Child Self, the Love that is the healing salve that ushers the feeling on its way to release. Yay!…on one hand…and curious, on the other. I realized that I had to learn to be alone in this life. Coming from the grand unification I found separation almost immediately. As a premi I was placed in an incubator for almost three weeks off and on. I was born Caesarian and, as a result, did not have the vaginal birth that is said to activate the nervous system’s outer field, leaving me sensitive and aware…too much. The birth was traumatic and likely laid the foundation for some future events and PTSD that I have moved into and through. But, mostly, my Mother’s form of discipline was to isolate. I watched pets and people and promises come and go. And, each time, I had to find some place of balance within me. I learned to be self aware and self productive, so much so that I am the master of that domain…and herein, is the issue. I had to learn to be alone. That separation is, and has always, been a choice, though I am aware of that so much more in these times.

By design humans are not creatures of isolation, left to fend for themselves. They are designed for cooperation, community, and contact. Forced Isolation and disacknowledgement is one of the worst of the abuses, as it denies that you even exist. We are destined for connected living in the Oneness, unified by design and choice. And yet, that is not how we have been taught or programmed to be. Despite societal, familial, and cultural overtures to the contrary,many are deeply alone, even when together. The preponderance of the fear vibration constricts the organism. It sets a field of anticipated danger which impacts body, mind, emotion, and spirit. And yet, most humans yearn for deep and profound connection…but more from a Disney perspective of happy ever after, than the real life connected growth and deepening that comes from committed relationships of all sorts.

As I mentioned before in this writing the original invitation of Oneness was not something I understood or was drawn to in the least bit. My power, my creation, my peace was in the world I created for myself. Oneness meant loss of self in those days…and that was not something I was willing to walk into consciously, or so it seemed. As a songwriter, I was drawn to creating songs about the Oneness, as if I was preparing myself at the same time as sending out human invitations to a time that was just down the road. It kept hanging around…and then the Aquarian Age energy dropped in. I immersed myself in the change and directed my creations and experience to address the unfolding message that came from this profound time of change.

Too often society points towards the perfect family as the panacea and steers everyone towards finding the great mystery flying in the face of the crumby experiences that were certainly not perfect that too many held in energetic memory. The wounds so many carry have not played well with the idea of the perfect family solution.

So, that is a brief presentation of how its been. And that is all well and good because it has honed me, and likely you, in your own way, to be the truth of me in this moment, a unique powerful frequency capable of so much more than I have allowed. As you can see in this section, the expanded family is beginning to reveal itself and is fast pointing us, one and all, towards integration .

To integrate is to become one with, to let in, to unify with.And in these quickly transforming times we are being laid at its feet and being asked to make it happen, for all of our sake. My capacity to integrate requires me being open to the idea. The openness is dependent on how much energetic debris and toxicity I still carry.  The lighter the amount then the more likely I am in touch with the foundational Love Frequency which allows me to open up more and look for connection and commonality with all I interface with. Seeking connection activates the attraction and I draw higher vibrational beings to my altar of awareness. There I am faced with the opportunity to integrate with them…become one. Opening up is an adventure, that in initial stages at least, is fraught with a host of potential what if scenarios. It is only by accepting the invitation and choosing to take the risk do we start to taste what integration is about.

It is thoughts and beliefs and personal experiential history that feeds the resistance to integrate. That is the debris I talked about above. Get clear and clean is the call. Open the heart and allow the receptivity. Trust life and then you can enter the integration domain where amplified living is a likelihood. You do not know what connected is like until you do it. And likely, in Universal fashion, the early stages of such action will pale in comparison to what is to come. Integration will clear resistance and neutralize beliefs and energetic pockets of debris to give us a grander experience that is as yet, unfathomable.

A challenge to actualizing integration is to recognize the pain and abuse that has been attached to racial integration through history. As we step into the spiritual integration of all life and substance we must wade through that debris soup to cleanse that frequency first. Then we rise above the connotations and experiences tied to the old use.

We are talking about integration with all of life, immersing oneself in the limitless expanse to unify with all forms. That may seem a lot right off the bat. So, start small. You are going to want to engage simultaneous integration of the inner and outer worlds. Integrating with self is advised as you move to integrate with the external(for now) forms of life. What we have been doing thus far in the course journey is about integrating self. We are learning to communicate with the cells, understanding the big picture of the design, applying higher frequency to thought and tissue, seeing all form and experience as in connection and symbiosis. As we deepen and grow in comfort with the inner integration then we can begin to move outward.

I encourage working with Nature first. There are no prejudices in the natural moment, no grudges, no desire for payback…simply pure loving life. Start with the feet. You already have an Earth connection. Develop the flow of energy and power through the Earth Star Chakra. Work with it until you can sense the actual flow. Connect with the core of the Earth and bring that vibration up. And invite it to do its work to clean and expand your greater connection. From there go to the Crown Chakra and invite the cosmic into your heart center. Further choice to integrate the Earth and Heaven energy at the heart will result in the knowledgeable foundation that becomes a Cosmic springboard.

Work with establishing a connection with objects like trees, plants, stones, water, sky, and fire. If you are really interested in expanding this then explore some of the Pagan and Wiccan rituals, tools that seriously open and gift that relationship. Communicate next with the spirit of the object and ask for messages. Respond to the first thing you feel or hear or sense. Answer back. Ask any thing you want and see what happens. Choose to be grateful, playful, and celebratory of this connection. The more you do then the more you will experience nature as alive and in cahoots with you in any moment.  Move in similar ways to animals and birds. Only when you are experiencing success and inspiration and comfort in these connections is it advisable to move to humans.

There are simply too many variables with humans. Baby steps are required. You can start with a friend or you can start with strangers. With no connection there is no expectation, thus an openness to take whatever comes. In a crowded area select someone to make connection with. Simply send out a vibe of hello and please look my way. See what happens. You are developing muscles here so be playful and keep at it. Soon you will develop the consistence of connection. That is all you are looking for at this level.

With a friend, find someone who is open and resonant with you and your desire to integrate the relationship more deeply through intentional play. Start with sending and receiving: thoughts, sensations in the body, songs, movie titles, a famous person, food, places, etc. Trade back and forth with sending and receiving. Remember that the very act of doing this you are opening doors and activating expanded capacities that are already there. Play until you start getting success and then play some more. The nature of the integration will grow into more personal elements if you choose. More on this down the road

The day shall arrive when life is completely integrated. We will be able to experience one another from the personal place of our own autonomy. AM not quite sure what that means yet…but we shall soon see…